Someday…

I suppose it’s always hard for me to come to terms with waiting for something to happen that I care about. After a while, I don’t know if it’s ever going to happen. And then, after a while longer, I suspect that it’s never going to happen. Until, finally, overwhelming evidence convinces me that there is absolutely no chance in hell it will ever happen. I have a lot of trouble accepting such things.  

On this 50^th anniversary of the March on Washington, I think about Martin Luther King’s famous “I have a dream” speech. He never lived to see that dream realized, and, so far, neither have we. Langston Hughes wrote about the fate of that dream.

What happens to a dream deferred?

Does it dry up like a raisin in the sun?

Or fester like a sore

And then run?

Does it stink like rotten meat?

Or crust and sugar over—

Like a syrupy sweet?

Maybe it just sags

Like a heavy load.

Or does it explode?

How can we live with a dream deferred? I suppose the very fact that it’s viewed as a deferred dream indicates hope. It may not be happening yet, but someday… It’s much like the first Christians who thought Jesus would be returning at any moment and then watched those moments turn into years. They realized that maybe this was going to take a lot longer than they first thought. So, they held onto the hope that someday…

As a person who is now past middle age, I’m learning how difficult it is to release personal dreams that have eluded me. It’s reaching the point where I have no good reason to hold onto some of them. I can’t continue to say, someday…  Why do I have such trouble accepting that? Rationally, I have every reason to let go of that dream that simply ainta gonna happen. And yet, even as I convince myself that I’m putting it behind me and moving on, there is still the tiniest part of me that thinks, maybe I’m wrong. Maybe this dream will still come to pass despite all evidence to the contrary. Maybe someday…

I’m wondering if I will ever be able to resign myself to reality and truly release those dreams that have mattered to me the most. When I’m on my deathbed, gasping my final breaths, will I be wondering if just maybe I gave up too soon? Will there still be a part of me holding onto the hope of someday...?        `

 

 

Always pulling us forward

When I went to seminary, almost 40 years ago, I had no idea that it was such a big deal for a woman to be a pastor. I felt called, and I responded, and then, when I got there, I found out that there were only a couple other women in my class. This was a new thing for Lutherans and they didn’t know quite how to handle it. Getting calls to serve in the church was especially challenging. It was hard for congregations to imagine a woman as their pastor because they had never experienced it before.  

Later, when I served on the bishop’s staff in my synod and worked with congregations in the call process, this was always an issue. Whenever I met with a congregational call committee and presented them with the name of a female candidate, it was never easy. The fact that I was a woman didn’t help. They thought I had an agenda and that, because I was a woman, I was trying to force a woman on them. The fact was, I did have an agenda. I wanted them to have the best pastor possible. And it just so happened that a lot of women clergy at that time were the best pastors around.  

I remember Liz, who was a little younger than me and had been serving as an associate pastor at a big church in the Columbus area. She was married to an Episcopal priest and when he got a call way up in the northeast-most corner of Ohio, she moved with him, hoping to find a call to a Lutheran church somewhere in the area. The problem was, there weren’t many Lutheran churches up there, so her options were limited. And  when one opened up, she needed the opportunity to interview. Well, one did open up. It was Messiah Lutheran Church in Ashtabula. They were not a large congregation, and they were located in a small town that was depressed economically. When I met with them to give them the profile information of a candidate for them to interview, I got some pushback. Not only was this candidate a woman, but she was already living in the community. They didn’t hide their mistrust from me. They clearly suspected I was trying to railroad them into calling a woman pastor, and one who was already living in the community at that.

I told them that I understood how they might feel that way, and I assured them that they weren’t in any way obligated to call this person as their pastor. But I also told them that once they met her, I felt confident that they would realize what a stroke of luck it was for them that she was already living in their community.

Well, they met Liz and were duly impressed. I had the privilege of installing her as their pastor. She served them well and was much loved. The only reason why she eventually left them was because the Northeastern Ohio Synod elected her their bishop. At the 2013 churchwide assembly of our Evangelical Lutheran Church in America, on Wednesday, Elizabeth Eaton was elected our presiding bishop.

 As I watched all the drama unfolding on the livestream on Wednesday, I couldn’t help but think of the evening I met with the call committee at Messiah in Ashtabula and introduced Liz’s name to them and had to defend that decision because they suspected I was trying to sell them a bill of goods. Amazingly, this happened only around 20 years ago. What a difference a couple decades make!

I wish that I had known at the time that the pastor in question would one day become the presiding bishop of the ELCA and I could have said to them, “Are you nuts?! Do you not realize what an HONOR it would be for you to have this woman as your pastor?!” But I didn’t know that at the time. And we never do know how things will unfold in the future, how the moment we’re enduring, the one where we’re holding on for dear life, actually has purpose in the long run. And how, despite appearances to the contrary, God is always pulling us forward.  

This week’s text from Hebrews 11 & 12 is about the God who is always pulling us forward. It’s a continuation of last Sunday’s reading where the writer of the letter to the Hebrews reminds us that we are part of an amazing family of faith. Much like looking through a family photo album, we see snapshots of those who have gone before us. And we learn that we didn’t invent faith. We come from a long line of people who lived the life of faith just as we do. People who were figuring it out as they went. Sometimes they got it right, sometimes they got it wrong. But through whatever came their way, God was always faithful. And as they experienced the never-failing faithfulness of God in their lives, they grew to trust it.

If we look over the pages of the family photo album that Hebrews 11 shows us, we see people who knew times of triumph in their lives. They conquered their enemies, they administered justice, obtained promises, shut the mouths of lions. They quenched raging fire, escaped the sword, won strength out of weakness. They even gained victory over death. And the writer of Hebrews could have left it at that and we’d all be happy. But there’s another side to the life of faith, too. And so we read on about people who were tortured, mocked, imprisoned, beaten, stoned, sawn in two. Those who lost everything and were left to wander about homeless.

The life of faith is not reserved for those who seem to live charmed lives, nor is it only for those who live through hell on earth. It’s a mixed bag. Because our lot in life is not a measure of our faithfulness. And so there’s hope for all of us, no matter what the circumstances we must endure. Because faith endures.

Faith trusts God’s promises even when we may question them. Faith holds on and holds out because we are in relationship with a God who always has something better in store for us. God is always pulling us forward.

We can learn that from those who have gone before us. This is especially important for us when, in the moment, it’s so hard to see reason to hope.

The theme of Moral Mondays is “Forward together, not one step back.” Although no one bills it as a theological statement, that’s what it is. It reminds us that we’re not in this alone. And we’re heading somewhere. Forward together, not one step back.

We need that reminder because it sure feels like we’re going backwards. Take the whole issue of voting, for example. For a long time, North Carolina had one of the lowest voter turn-outs in the country. But then a lot of changes were made so that in recent years we have ended up with one of the highest voter turn-outs. We had been the most progressive state in the South in that regard. And now, all that progress has been wiped away with a stroke of the governor’s pen as he signed one of the most restrictive voting laws in the nation. 

It includes cutbacks in early voting, restrictions on voter registration, requiring voters to present government issued photo i.d.s, limitations on poll workers, and other actions that can be motivated by nothing other than a desire to make it harder for some people to vote — likely poor people, people of color, old people. Why would anyone in the United States of America want to make it harder for people to vote?

It’s difficult to see that we’re moving forward because when we’re bogged down in the moment; we lose sight of the bigger picture. That’s why the Martin Luther King quote, that’s a paraphrase of the thoughts of the abolishionist Theodore Parker, is one that I hang onto in times like this… “The arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice.” The arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice.

For the fact is, as people of faith, we’re not sprinters. We’re running a marathon. That’s the image we get in the 12^th chapter of Hebrews. We’re long distance runners. Have you ever run in a marathon? One of the main rules for a marathon runner is that they can’t expend all their energy at the beginning of the race, or they’ll have nothing left for the end. From the beginning of the race you have to have the end in mind. You have to pace yourself or you’ll never finish. It may be hard to see this when you start out. And you may be tempted to quit along the way. But you gotta keep on keeping on. You gotta press on to the finish. As the song says, “Keep your eyes on the prize.”

Do you ever get so discouraged with what’s going on around you, or maybe what’s going on in your own personal life, that you just wanna give up? I know there are times when I do. It’s like I’m running in a marathon and I just can’t take another step. I can’t do it anymore. And I just wanna sit down on the side of the road and cry. And sometimes, to be honest, that’s what I do.

But then, while I’m sitting there on the side of the road crying, I look up and I see a stream of people running in front of me. I look back, and as far as I can see, there are people running on that road. And I look forward, and as far as I can see, there are people running on that road. And when I see this procession of saints, I realize that there’s only one thing I can do. I gotta get back up and join them. Because that’s what the life of faith does.

You know that little poem “Footprints in the Sand”? It talks about how when things are at their worst we only see one set of footprints in the sand because that’s when God carries us. Well, it’s a lovely sentiment, but that’s not the way it works, folks. It’s not just about me and God walking together through life. That’s not how it works. It’s about me and all the people of faith who walk with me, and all the people of faith who have gone before me, and all the people of faith who will come after me. And, as I see it, that’s how God walks with me. Through the procession of saints that flows like a river through history. So, there is never a single set of footprints in the sand. There are never two sets of footprints in the sand. The fact is, there are so many footprints in the sand you can’t even see where one ends and the other begins. That’s how God carries us through the times of struggle when we’d just like to give up. We’re swept along by the community of the faithful who are running the race with us.

The author of Hebrews describes how Jesus himself leads the way for us. And when the race is over, and we run into the stadium to take our victory lap, we hear a thunderous roar from the stands that are filled with people cheering us on. They are the ones who’ve finished the race ahead of us. They’ve been rooting for us all along. And in the end, they celebrate our victory. We made it. We didn’t give up. We may have wanted to give up, but we couldn’t. Because God was pulling us forward all along. In a world filled with violence, and hatred, and injustice, God was pulling us toward something better. God was pulling us toward the one who ran the race before us. God was pulling us toward Jesus.

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight and the sin that clings so closely, and let us run with perseverance the race that is set before us.”

Amen.

 

 

 

 

 

Bibles in the dumpster

I cleaned out our church library this week. Stuff that had been accumulated through the years that nobody could bring themselves to throw out. Old Sunday school material that will never be used again, hymnals that will never be used again, advice from the 50s for teenagers about sex that, please God, will never be used again. It amounted to a massive pile of stuff on the conference room table. And it all had to go. So, I hired some facebook friends to transport it to the dumpster around back.

I warned them, when they started, not to look. Because once they began browsing they would start deciding what they couldn’t possibly throw away, and we would be there all day. (I was paying them by the hour!) Of course, they didn’t listen to me. What is the aversion people have to throwing away books? I confess that I have it, too, especially when it comes to weeding out my own personal library. Is it because books are repositories of knowledge and that makes them sacred to us? I dunno. But it’s hard to dispose of a book. It feels like killing something that is meant to bring life to another. Once you dispose of it, you know that it will never bring life again.

My dumping crew got a chuckle out of some of the things they discovered. There was a book about silky terriers that was in the running for the most random book to be found in a church library. But then they came across the winner. It was a large book entitled, How to Draw Spaceships. Really, every church library should have one, right? One of my dumpers decided to hang onto it and give it to his nephew. Oy. And then there were the “antique” books. Another of my dumpers left with a box of them.

But the real problem books were the Bibles. What do you do with old Bibles? Are you supposed to bury them, or burn them, like the American flag? The fact is, we have old Bibles coming out the wazoo. Many of them are the King James Version, which nobody in my church uses any more. Certainly, we could hang onto a couple of them for historical reasons, but not 30. And then, there were the Big Bibles. These were the old family Bibles, and we had quite an assortment of them. How did they all end up here? Well, I can just see a family going through Aunt Gladys’s things after she’s gone and figuring out what to do with all the stuff she left behind. They come across this huge family Bible with its ornate, gold-leaf cover and they can’t possibly throw it away. But then, nobody in the family wants it either. What to do? Then one of them comes up with a bright idea. “Let’s take it to the church!” So, the story goes, again and again. And we end up with a shelf full of humongous Bibles that people dumped on us because they didn’t want them, but they couldn’t possibly bring themselves to throw them away. And we will never use them. Can you imagine having an adult class, asking everyone to grab a Bible and someone goes to the shelf in the library and pulls down one of these big ol’ family Bibles in the King James Version? It’s never going to happen!

Well, my dumping crew couldn’t do it. They couldn’t throw these Bibles away. So I had to do it myself. A few church members were standing by the dumpster watching me and I could see the horrified looks on their faces. As I tossed each one into the dumpster, I repeated, “This is not God, this is a book. This is not God, this is a book.” I don’t know if anyone went back and fished them out of the dumpster after I left because I walked away after the deed was done.

When I said, “This is not God, this is a book” one of my spectators said, “Yes, but it’s the Word of God.” Of course, he’s right. But the word of God is not ink and paper. It’s something more than that. The ink and paper is just ink and paper. It’s not to be worshiped. It is not an idol. By this logic, when we print our weekly Bible readings in the Sunday bulletin do we need to keep those bulletins for all time? Isn’t a Bible just a collection of such writings?

This whole exercise has reminded me of our strange relationship with this book we call the Bible. We want to idolize it and give it magical powers. When will we start reading it and allowing its words to change our lives? That’s something I would never throw in a dumpster. Nor could I.

Was Jesus a NICE guy?

We like to believe that Jesus was a nice guy, God’s own “Mr. Congeniality.” But, of course, that’s not who he was at all. As he’s journeying toward Jerusalem and things are heating up, his words are marked with a sense of urgency. Headed toward a violent confrontation with death, he doesn’t say, “I’ve come to bring sweetness and light to this earth”, but “I’ve come to bring fire to this earth.”

Like the God Moses encountered in the burning bush, Jesus knows the fire intimately. And experiencing that kind of inner fire doesn’t make one nice. On the contrary, an encounter with a burning bush always precedes confrontation and conflict. After Moses meets God in the burning bush, he’s not led to peace and a resolution of his problems, but straight into a hornet’s nest with Pharoah himself. It seems that conflict and confrontation are necessary for the sake of freedom and life. This is true for Jesus, as well.

At his birth the angels may have announced “Peace on Earth” but that’s not the way Jesus describes his mission at all. “Do you think that I have come to bring peace to the earth?” he asks. “No, I tell you, but rather division!” And then he goes on to describe what he means by that. “From now on five in one household will be divided, three against two and two against three; ⁵³they will be divided: father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against her daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law.”

Now, this was no small thing in Jesus’ culture. In that time and place, it was your relationship to your kinship group that defined your life. This was the foundation of society. And Jesus wasn’t just talking about being divided from your kinship group in theory here. This was a reality for those who followed him.

So, what does it mean for us today? Somehow along the way, Jesus has become domesticated for us. We assume that if Jesus were alive in 2013 he’d be a college graduate, driving home to his house in the suburbs in his SUV, sipping on Starbucks, listening to country-western music. But the truth is, Jesus was anything but mainstream in his lifetime and he would be anything but mainstream today.

Many Christians in our culture stake their claim on family values as if they were invented by Jesus, when the truth is, he wasn't a very "good" son to Mary his mother. A "good son" would have stayed home and worked at the family's trade to care for his mother until her death; he wouldn't have gone off galavanting around the countryside. And Jesus wasn’t even a "good man" by the standards of the respectable people of his day. A "good man" would defend the family name and honor if challenged or attacked; he wouldn't be talking about loving enemies, and he wouldn't be disclaiming his family name by saying "those who hear the word of God and do it are my mother and my sister and my brothers."

And as if all of that isn't bad enough, Jesus actually encourages other people to leave their homes and families, to allow their family name and honor to be dismantled by others rather than upheld by retaliation. For that’s what it means to follow him his example.
Jesus challenges us to follow him in a radical way of life that turns the world as we know it completely upside down. There’s a hymn we sing in advent called “Canticle of the Turning.” It’s based on the song of Mary in Luke’s gospel. One of the verses goes like this:From the halls of pow’r to the fortress tow’r, not a stone will be left on stone.
Let the king beware for your justice tears ev’ry tyrant from his throne.
The hungry poor shall weep no more, for the food they can never earn;
there are tables spread, ev’ry mouth be fed, for the world is about to turn.
My heart shall sing of the day you bring. Let the fires of your justice burn.
Wipe away all tears, for the dawn draws near, and the world is about to turn.

It’s a song of victory and usually sung with gusto. But the thing that we don’t like to face is the fact that when God turns the world upside down, we’re a part of that world. If we’re people who benefit from the status quo, we’re being turned upside down, too…or if we’re a part of a system that oppresses others…or a part of a nation at war…or part of a culture that treats the poor with contempt. If we benefit at all from the status quo, God’s reign means a reversal for us. Ouch!

When you’re leaving one way of life and taking up another, it’s painful. It’s disruptive. But it’s also true that the way to find the freedom to live in a new way is to turn your back on the old way: old relationships, old patterns of life, old ways of seeing the world. Bottom line? If you want to follow Jesus and participate in the Reign of God, you’d better be able to stand on your head.

Living as if

When I was first ordained I didn’t feel very much like a pastor. I used to put on my clerical collar and practice my sermons in front of the mirror to convince myself. Sometimes it worked, but often on Sunday mornings I felt like a fraud. The fact that I had no female role models at the time didn’t help, but it was more than that. I had to figure out how to fill a role for other people, a role that they certainly needed me to fill, while being authentic to myself in the process. Of course, when I was twenty-something years old, I wasn’t all that comfortable in my own skin, much less filling the role of a pastor. Nonetheless, I had a congregation to serve, so I couldn’t wait until I got my act together. I had to fumble my way through it from day-to-day and act as if I were a pastor. It seemed to be easier to convince other people than it was to convince myself. As the years have passed, I've settled into the role by wearing it, much like breaking in a pair of shoes, and it's become comfortable for me. I have a better sense of myself and a better sense of how Nancy does pastor. After 34 years, although there are still times when I feel like a fraud, most days I am at peace with Pastor Nancy. I arrived at this place by living as if I were a pastor even when I didn't feel like one, and eventually, I became one.

And then I’ll have a conversation with a church member and they’ll confess to me that they don’t know what they believe anymore. They don’t know if they believe in heaven. They don’t know if they believe in a bodily resurrection. They don’t know if they can believe God really cares. Sometimes they don’t know if they can believe in a God at all. And often this crisis of faith will keep them away from the church. They feel like a hypocrite being with other people who seem to believe all the stuff they struggle with. They feel like a fraud, like they’re pretending to be someone they aren’t. And I think to myself, yeah, I know the feeling. I’ve heard it so often from so many people that I suspect it could be the norm for people of faith. From time to time, or maybe even all the time, we have trouble believing the stuff we think we should be believing if we’re going to consider ourselves Christians. And I also suspect that, as a result, a lot of people attend weekly worship under a heavy cloud of guilt because they feel like a fraud. There are also those who don’t want to put themselves through that, so they don’t go at all.

What I want to say to them is that the Church is filled with people just like them. They’re not alone. And then I want to talk to them about the difference between belief and faith. We tend to put way too much emphasis on belief in the church. John 3:16 hasn’t helped. It makes it sound like believing is the way to salvation. But isn’t that just another twist on works righteousness, on earning our own salvation? If believing were the goal, then we would have to determine believing what exactly? Believing how much? The fact is, beliefs come and go and, if you're trusting in what you believe, you’re in for a bumpy ride. If you’re going to trust in something, make sure it’s trustworthy. For me, that’s the grace of God. Even when I don’t know what I believe or I don’t seem to believe anything at all, I trust that the grace of God won’t let me down. In fact, even when I don’t trust in the grace of God, I trust that the grace of God won’t let me down. (If you can follow that line of reasoning.)

Faith isn’t believing stuff that is so far-fetched no one in their right mind could possibly buy it. It’s not certainty. It’s not having a theological explanation for all the hard questions. Faith is trusting in a relationship that transcends all that foolishness. And I’ve come to the conclusion that when we’re living into the faith we long to have, when we’re living as if it were true, we’re not frauds at all. That’s when we’re authentically living in relationship with God.

On a Sunday morning, the pews in my church are filled with people who are living as if. They may not always believe the words we speak, but they speak them as if they did. They may not be convinced that Jesus is really present in the bread and wine, but they receive it as if he were. They may not always accept the truth of the words they sing, but they sing them as if they did. Because that’s the best they can do. It’s all too much to really take it in without reservations, without doubts, without questions. And so they live as if. And that’s enough.

I want to tell my dear friends who feel like a fraud being a part of a faith community that feeling like a fraud is part of what it means to be a part of a faith community. They are not alone in that. They are a part of a community that is filled with those who feel the same way they do. And the ones who don’t, either haven’t yet begun to think about it, or they’ve worked through it and landed on the other side. But that’s part of what it means to be a person of faith. And the beauty of being part of a faith community is that, from week to week, there are those who are going through a completely faithless time in their lives while there are those who are filled with strength, hopefulness, and joy in their relationship with God. And the way it works in community is that the ones who are strongly grounded in their connection with God can hang onto the ones whose faith is floating somewhere above the atmosphere and keep them from being sucked into a black hole. The roles may change. At any given time, those who once were strong in faith may become weak, but there are always some among us whose faith can hold the rest of us in a safe place. And that’s why, even when you’re feeling like a fraud at worship -- especially then, being part of a faith community is such a gift.

If you're feeling like a faithless fraud in church, don't leave us. Stay with us and live as if. Father Richard Rohr has said, “We do not think ourselves into new ways of living, we live ourselves into new ways of thinking.” And that’s the thing about living as if you were a person of faith. After a while you figure out what it really means to be a person of faith. And you discover that you've been one all along.

I'm a patriotic sap

There are parts of ourselves that we try hard to hide from the rest of the world, lest we be ridiculed, shamed, or grossly misunderstood. So, we push them back in the closet and hope nobody ever looks inside. Well, I’m going to bring one of those hidden parts of myself out into the open. And here it is… I'm a patriotic sap.

Now, for some people that may not be such a bad thing, but for me, it’s embarrassing to admit. I’m always critical of the American story as it’s been reported in our biased history books. I know very well that my country is flawed, deeply flawed. Our founding ancestors were not the heroes we like to believe they were. As much as I love our current president, he is not infallible by any means. And many of the cultural markers that embody what it means to be American drive me nuts: violence, consumerism, narcissism, deceitfulness. I’m not always proud of my country.

But that’s not the whole story. I’m also a patriotic sap. When I’m at a sporting event and stand for the national anthem, it’s all I can do to hold back the tears. If I’m home alone, feeling free to express my emotions, and I hear “The Star Spangled Banner” sung on T.V., my sobbing begins right about where “the bombs bursting in air, gave proof through the night that our flag was still there.”

When I enter a voting booth, I get so emotional that I can’t wait to get it over with so I can rush to my car and lose it.  It actually starts while I’m waiting in line, looking at all the other people standing with me, rich/poor, black/white, professional/blue collar, young/old, and I consider what a privilege it is to be voting in this country. It’s orderly, non-violent, participatory. And it makes me weep.

Despite my cynicism about the U.S. government, I am always amazed at how well it works. Maybe not from day to day, but over the long haul. I think it’s because of our very American core value:  justice. We  may not agree on how that gets played out, and sometimes the powers-that-be are, in fact, not acting on the side of justice at all. But that’s never the end of the story. We, the people, can change that. And, eventually we do, because we aspire to something more. We aspire to justice.

Yesterday I went to Moral Monday in Raleigh. A couple thousand people met on the grass to join in the very American struggle for justice. With them, they brought bullhorns and signs and flags, and anger and compassion and courage. They are people who can't remain silent while injustice  runs amok in our state.  And I stood with them. It was hard for me because I had to spend about five hours keeping my sappy patriotism in check.

I don’t know when I’m ever prouder of my country than when everything we stand for seems to be lost and a few people will have the courage to remind us of who we are. And suddenly, there it is: “proof through the night that our flag was still there.” The ideals that bind us to one another as Americans may never be fully realized, but they will never be lost as long as there are voices calling us back to justice. And there always seem to be those voices. It's the ultimate act of patriotism, and I can’t help but get sappy over it.

Karma, Ripley, Barbie, Jerry Springer… & St. Francis of Assisi

"You reap what you sow.” You may have said these words before, but did you know they come from the Bible? I suspect that when we use that expression, most of the time, we’re taking comfort in the fact that what goes around comes around. If somebody does you wrong, they’re going to pay for it someday. The whole idea of karma is something that brings us comfort. But if you read these words in their context of Galatians 6, that’s not exactly what Paul is saying. To understand what he’s getting at, you need to go back to chapter 5 where he talks about allowing your ego to guide you or living in the Spirit. If you’re living out of your ego, it will affect your behavior, and there will be consequences. If you’re living in the Spirit, it will affect your behavior, and there will be consequences.

Is it not true? There are consequences for our behavior. Those consequences are not the result of a wrathful God reigning down terror on those who displease him. Those consequences are the natural result of the way we choose to live our lives.

I read this spring that people are having more problems with their sinuses and allergies because there is more pollen than there used to be. And it’s going to get worse, because this is a result of climate change. And I read about how the melting of ice in Antarctica is much worse than we ever realized because where it’s melting the most is underneath, where we can’t see it. And it’s going to get worse. That same day, I read that in New York City they are predicting that the temperature is rising more every year so that in the not too distant future the summers will be as hot in NYC as they are in Birmingham, Alabama. Now, my daughter Gretchen lives in Brooklyn. She has a cat named Ripley. And one of the problems they have in the summer is that every time they open the fridge, Ripley climbs in. (Once the cat was in there all night and they didn’t know it.) And I can’t blame her. When I’m there, if I could climb in the fridge, I’d join her. Summer is already unbearable in NYC. The underground subway stations are stifling. Most people don’t have AC in their homes. The power grid would never support it if they did. And we learn that this is only going to get worse. Some people look at all the weird weather we’ve been having and attribute it to God’s doing: the tornados, the droughts, the flooding, the out of control fires. But we know better, don’t we? We are reaping what we have sown.

We live in terribly violent world. Violence is so pervasive in our culture that may be as unaware of it as a fish is oblivious to the fact that he’s swimming in water. And yet, what can we expect? What have we done to sow seeds of peace in our world? We entertain ourselves with graphic pictures of people being punched, shot, blown up. We see violence in everything, from the video games our children play, to NFL football, to the Jerry Springer Show. We have a history of supporting unjust wars because it’s our patriotic duty. We spank our children with gusto and wonder why they grow up thinking the way to resolve problems is by threatening or causing physical harm to another. Do we have to wonder why our world is so violent? We are reaping what we have sown.

We objectify women from the day they’re born as we fuss over their appearance, and then we hand them little replicas of the ideal woman, that is… Barbie dolls. And we teach them that their greatest purpose in life is in pleasing other people, particularly men. You can see it on T.V. and in the movies and at shopping malls and in hundreds of venues all across this city. And then we wonder why so many women are victims of rape, and domestic violence, and sexual harassment, and human sex trafficking. We are reaping what we have sown.

Well, I could go on, but that's probably enough. You know it’s true for us as individuals, it’s true for us as a community of God’s faithful people, it’s true for us as a nation. We reap what we sow. Yes, Paul was right. But his purpose in saying those words wasn’t primarily because he wanted people to see how their bad choices lead to dire consequences. He wanted them to know that they aren’t simply captive to those bad choices. They are free to live in the Spirit and sow seeds that bring them to life in all its fullness.

“…if you sow to the Spirit, you will reap eternal life from the Spirit. So let us not grow weary in doing what is right, for we will reap at harvest-time, if we do not give up.”

It reminds me of a prayer about sowing that goes like this.
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
Where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive.
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Amen.


May it be so with you.